Former shoplifter Winona Ryder

Winona Ryder is terrified of growing old alone.The 'Girl, Interrupted' actress, who previously dated Johnny Depp and Matt Damon, fears she may have already met and lost the love of her life.Winona told Vogue magazine: "It's this weird pressure that I probably shouldn't even talk about. You know how people ask, 'Who is the love of your life?' God, I hope I haven't met that person yet, in a way, because I'm single. I hope I haven't had that, since that would be sad."Winona also spoke about her conviction for shoplifting when she was caught stealing from the Saks Fifth Avenue department store, in Beverly Hills, in 2001.The actress has blamed her bizarre behaviour on prescription painkillers. She explained: "Two months prior to my arrest, I broke my arm in two places,and the doctor was giving me a lot of Oxycodone and I was taking it at first to get through the pain. And then there was this weird point when you don't know if you are in pain but you're taking it."Have you ever taken painkillers? It isn't a reckless state, like you're out of your head. It's just confusion."It all happened in the December after the September 11 terrorist attack. I couldn't believe so much attention was being paid to me, when terrorists had just attacked us, and there was all this really important news going on. It was embarrassing."The 35-year-old brunette refuses to feel guilty about the incident because she didn't "physically" hurt anyone, but says the experience helped her to stop taking Oxycodone.Winona said: "I didn't have this tremendous sense of guilt because I hadn't hurt anyone. Had I physically harmed someone or caused harm to a human being, I think it would have been an entirely different experience."When it was over I moved to San Francisco to be near my parents. I made a very conscious decision not to work. No one in my family ever got angry with me. Concerned, yes, but not concerned with a drug problem or anything. Because after that night I pretty much didn't ever. If you are ever arrested, you can't ever do that again."