Pamela Anderson was shocked by recent photographs of her in a bikini. (right) The former 'Baywatch' actress, who has been holidaying in an exclusive Hawaiian resort with ex-husband Tommy Lee and their two sons, has vowed to hit the gym after realising her body doesn't look the same in skimpy swimwear as it did in her youth. The 39-year-old blonde moaned: "I've just been sent some pics from Hawaii. I have to laugh - well at least the world knows I don't get botox! I'm much hotter in my mind, I swear I look better."Then again I hardly check a mirror before I go outside, I may start doing that more. I may have to start working out too, although genes and gymnastics have gotten me this far."Pammie, who dismissed rumors she had romantically reunited with Tommy on holiday, refuses to cover up her curves or waste time preening in front of the mirror. She added: "I refuse to let these paparazzi ruin my time or my lifestyle in general with my children - I'm not going to spend time putting make-up on or staying covered up on the beach. I think I look alright but everywhere you turn you have a camera in your face - up your butt, it's crazy."I'm a semi-retired single mom - hello?"